Before the New Year

Sitting here today, during this rotten storm, I was thinking "wow, this year has been a complete waste!" but that is so not true, so many great things happened, but just as many bad things happened, so it makes me feel like they cancel out, but really the good things were really good. I have a wicked awesome job, wouldn't change it for the world. I bought a house, a freaking house and although it over whelms me most of the time, I really do love my house. So now that I have to go back to my house, alone, I'm really going to have the spare time to do what I want to it. I need to stop being so lazy and afraid of doing things alone.

I'm a big pinner, I LOVE Pinterest, I waste too much time pinning and not trying the things I find. So my goal - not a new years resolution, this isn't the new year yet that is why I wanted to get this post out before the new year - is to make to do lists for each month of 2013 of atleast 30 things I want to do, and accomplish atleast 20 of them! These are small little to dos, I will also have bigger things that I won't be able to finish in a month, but need to remember to continually work on them. 

First off here are a couple things that I need to continually work on through the new year. 

1. Cleaning off my mac and archiving my photos 

I really want to start a wisdom book and fill it with life lessons
that I have learn,  for quotes and any other bit  of meaningful
knowledge I think suits my life and morals.

2. Documenting for work and for personal 

3. My professional work portfilio 

4. My "Wisdom Book" 

5. Start my physical "House Book" with little things that need to be fixed or replaced in my house, decor ideas, bigger reno projects, and more. 

6. Better blogging, on here and my photo blog 

7. Working on my business! my website, business plan and office. I've really neglected this lately. 

8. Saving money and budgeting

9. My organizer
10. And compile a list of recipes or make it yourself item, (laundry soap, deodorant, etc) 

Those are just things that I can think of off the top of my head. I'm actually going to have to print on this list so that I can actually remember. I put so many things in the back closet of my head so much. And I need to make some of this stuff real physical beings (books) because the internet is so easy to get side tracked and forget about main things that shit just doesn't get done. So cutting back on my internet time is a goal of mine for this new found me.

I had started this "do so many things a month" goal at the first of december, but I totally failed at it and I think I was meant to because of the whole spend time with the family while I could deal. So there are a couple of things that I would like to get done before 2013 gets here, but nothing really crazy, because I am not going to try and pull off unrealistic goal in the next couple of days. Here are the couple of things that I would like to get accomplished before Jan 1st.

The Life Calendar - I really want to find a cute little box for mine to, like the one on the left

Memory Jar

I sure hope that I can atleast get these two things done before the new year. I would also like to get some of these done over the break, or before the end of january.

1. Moved back into my house, all my christmas stuff and the rest of my things from my mothers that didn't make it before. 
2. The whole placed cleaned
3. Re-arrange my bedroom 
4. Get my office function-able and organized
5. My piano moved out of my house

Then there is my Dream To Do list which consists of things that I always want to get done, but NEVER sit down to do it. 

1. Re-write my children's books
2. Write more from my other ideas 
3. Work on my personal photography

And finally there are my work projects at the club. 

1. My professional portfolio
2. My Video Project
3. Documenting year book 
4. Idea Book
5. Coloring pages 

I will post my January list soon and a couple other post. I think I am going to do up some posts ahead of time incase there are time I don't feel like blogging. 

Home Owning Life

I have been living without internet for the past 30 days and I've actually lived to talk about it. The good part is that I have been so busy that I really haven't had alot of time to waste on the interwebs anyway. But I really have missed blogging. I'm going to make a quick but good post about how things have been before The Walking Dead comes on.

I've been working alot and taking some curriculum courses away. I was away this weekend for one and spent the night at my aunts house, which was really nice. I always love going away to spend some time with her and my cousins.

Work has been so awesome, I have to be honest that it was alittle stressful at first because I didn't have much experience with infants and toddlers, but now that I've been working there for almost 2 months those buggers are really growing on me. I find myself missing them all the time and I'm almost excited to get out of bed and go to work.

These pictures are of me and a little girl I work with, she is so smart and loves my iphone. She'll take it out of my pocket and try to unlock it to get to the camera, then she climbs up in my lap and sits on one side of me so that I can reverse the camera and she can see us and she'll push the camera button. She likes to do funny faces and nice smiley ones. She's such a sweetheart!

 When I'm not working I'm at home cleaning. I spend so much time cleaning and doing housework now, but I will give Justin some credit because he helps me alot on his days off, which I am very thankful for. There is still so much to be done in the house, but it is coming along as I have time to work on it. I finally got my bedroom set up alittle bit more today. I hung some stuff up and justin and I worked on the walk-in and got our clothes all organized. I think my next project will be the downstairs bathroom, because my father and stepmother generously bought me a great housewarming present :) a dryer. I am so thankful for it too, the dryer that was in the house has got to be from the seventies and the belt is gone in it and I can only put a handful of clothes in it most days. It makes doing laundry take forever! So when I take the old one out and put the new one in, I think I'm going to take up the laminate that is covering the hardwood up. I do not understand why people covering beautiful hardwood floors...even scractched hardwood is better than the orange/yellow laminate that is currently on the floor. This room is also the room that needs to most cleaning and organizing. So I'll make this the next to-do. Hopefully I will be able to afford it.

Here are some before and after photos of the master bedroom.

BEFORE 

BEFORE

I think having the bed this way makes the room feel so much bigger! 

I love my room. It feels so nice to just have it ready, it's just a different atmosphere when it's not completely wrote off.

And for those who live away and might not know what my house looks like here is a photo :)

I have so many more things that I could talk about, but time is getting close for me to curl up in the livingroom of my mothers and watch the walking dead, then I have to go back to my internet-less house and go to sleep so I will be refreshed to go into work tomorrow and not get home til 10pm because I have first aide courses until thursday :(

I'm hoping that my modem will be here soon so that I can blog from my own house haha

Stay Happy!

Where To Begin

I wish I could say that I have been keeping busy and not rolling around on the floor whining about waiting to get into my house, but really I've just been working and whining haha. I have been some what productive and packed some things up and met with my lawyer last night to sign the papers. This week has been kinda awful though because I haven't been sleeping, there has been a terrible mess going around at work and it's not even like a visible cold. It's something that eats away at the inside of you and just makes you feel DREADFUL, but people look at you and say "k stop acting like you feel shitty," cause they are coughing and sneezing. So yesterday I was extremely exhausted and on top of feeling crappy and dealing with personal issues I had to dish out a bucket full of cash to pay lawyer fees - shoulda become a lawyer now that I see how much I have to dish out on this side of things haha - BUT it's all going to be worth it come thursday!

Since this whole house buying thing started I haven't been able to concentrate on anything but that, so I really really really can't wait to get it over with and go back to normal life, just in my own house. Get organize and get my ass in gear. I have lots of projects that I want to start working on.

Some new things in my life have been,  I started working out with my BioDad/Aunt/Tonia, we went for a two hour walk on tuesday it was pretty great, we were supposed to do it again but I haven't really been feeling that great so we went for a smaller walk on wednesday and then work and exhaustion took over. We are starting a weight loss plan with another friend from work, just so we have someone else to answer to and weigh us in because we can talk each other out of anything. "oh we can go for a walk tomorrow,""a bag of chips never hurt anyone," "well we fell off the wagon already this week, so we'll start over again next monday," and so on! We weigh in at 11:00 and I am DREADING it, only because I know that I cheated myself and gained my weight back that I lost at the first of the year. I'm really hoping that working with her will keep me on track and she'll have great tips about eating right and she's VERY encouraging and understanding!

I also put my name down for a volunteer program, what we called in school "toast cart," so I will be dealing out the toast instead of getting breakfast from it haha. I'm alittle nervous, I start it in october and its only a couple of days a month. The reason I started was because my grandmother does it and I thought it would be a nice thing we could do together and because the boys and girls club does up the schedule I asked to be put on her days :) And even though it will mean earlier mornings those days, I live next door to the school so I can just hop on over real quick before work!

Once I get into the house and get alittle settled I really want to start re-using and re-creating items, so I've been online yard-saling and buying up some things that I want to work on. So I can't wait to start posting about that. I feel so horrible for not blogging much these past coupel of weeks because work has been crazy and buying a house really made me go alittle nuts and I didn't want to do anything my pin because I was so excited. Now that it's actually a few days away I've calmed down and really just want the 5 days to pass by.

The nursery has been pretty great, I'm learning alot and catching on to things, but because I grew up an only child I have to say the past few weeks have been over whelming for sure! So my mother switched my jobs this morning so that I was able to hang out with my older kids and she looked after the babies. I'm so thankful that we can do that on days when things are just too much for one of us, I really miss my "big kids" and it helps when I'm having a bad day cause they really make my day. They all told me that they want to come visit me at my house and I said they REALLY have to come trick-or-treating at my house this year!!

This weekend it's giving alot of rain and I was hoping to get a photo shoot done to pass some of the time, but by the report I won't be able to, still keeping my fingers crossed though. SO if I don't get to do a shoot, I will get another post up on idea's I have for my master bedroom!! I'm so excited, but really unsure of what to do about it!

Stay Happy!!!

Impatience

Its been alittle over a week since my last post and I really wished I would have posted more as my first house purchase progressed, but really it hasn't been anything exciting. Mostly just paper signing and banking and lawyers, oh and alot of pinning home decor ideas. This is mainly what my post will be about, I won't be able to do many changes to the house, but I have alot of plans for it and I want to post what I am thinking now, so that I can look back after they are finished and see how different it really turns out haha
Another reason I haven't been blogging is because I started in the nursery this monday and I'm working full time. This I am very happy about because I really need to get some cash built up before I move into the house.
I've noticed that I am not only impatient, but a symptom of my impatience is turrets. Atleast 10 times, if not more, a day I yell in weird voices "I want my house," because waiting 22 more days is going to literally kill me. I can't explain to you how impatient I am, it's too the point that I get angry that I can't move in yet haha, I just have SO much planned and know what I want to do that I just hate waiting to get it done.

I am also impatient for Katelynn and Rubyn to get back from their honeymoon so they can see their photos. I really hope they like them, here are a couple sneak peaks before I go on about my house!

Ideas that I have for the house 

The Porch

this color scheme            or               this color scheme

I really like the thought of being organized and neat like this

I think this is so neat! 

I am definitely having a trash station for garbage and recycles!

The Kitchen

I'm between a nice light and warm yellow or a light fresh green! I have no idea which to choose! I think I'm leaning towards the yellow though.

Some things that I would like to do in the kitchen. I really like the stand up draw by the fridge.

I would really like either of these types of store boards in my kitchen!

I am stopping at two rooms because I could go on forever and I am trying to do like 10 others things while blogging and I've been at this for 2-3 hours. I'm multi-tasking too much so I need to cut one things short and it's going to be the blog. But I will post more ideas soon! 

Stay Happy! 

The Beginning of June

It's finally the beginning of June, the start of summer and I have a long month ahead of me. I've been working really hard and making myself some steady money :) I piled by first bit of cash together and went on a shopping spree, the first time I've bought a lump sum of clothing and all the fixings in a long time, probably since highschool. I bought 3 dresses, 6 pairs of shoes, a bunch of panties, socks, shorts, tees, tanks, halters, purses, wallets, and jewelry. I cleaned out the mall basically and I could have kept going. I used to HATE shopping and you would be lucky to keep me in a mall for more than an hour, but now you have to drag me out with a toonie in my pocket.

I re-organized my closet after shopping and tried to make room for all my
clothes, plus justin's since he moved in. That's what I was able to give up :P
Plus 2.5 drawers in my 8 drawer dresser. 

My first pair of shorts since I was 10, I'll be 21 this year. I've always hated
my legs, but I decided that I just need to get over it and stay cool this
summer, but also because I never wore shorts, my skin color is plain paper
white... 

My life has been over run with work, between filling in at the BG club and working to get wedding photos done and then trying to organize and keep organized in my life, fighting off my procrastination I feel like my brain is going to start leaking from my ears. Here are the reasons that I love working with kids! 

Chalking on Sunny Days!

I drew chalk outlines of all the kids, then they did me. I'm kinda jagged
and have something protruding from a place that I should have something
due to my gender, and I grew a wing like device from my right arm. Also
my brain looks more like a unicorn horn. 

BUGS! The kids bring me everything that they find or some screech at the
top of their lungs for me to come kill something. It's helped me get over
my fears of some creepers though. Today a boy brought in a gorgeous
snake, I was the only "teacher" that would play with it. We let him go back
into the grass outside the fence to find a "girlfriend" also it was a harmless
garder snake.

Playing in bread crumbs! 

Baby BUNNIES! one of the co-op student's grandmother brought in her
baby bunnies. The kids LOVED it. I missed the day that the baby
chicks came to visit. I was pretty depressed about it. 

At home I've been editing and just fitting in things when I can. I've been doing alot of stuff that I haven't documented, but I usually take instagrams of most things cause it's easy, here are things that I was able to capture over the last little bit. 

I was able to hang out with one of my good friends Cassidy and go through
a bunch of clothes that we had collected.  

My bio-bro ThugDawg (Joel) and his girlfriend Meow (Kit) came along
when we took a shopping trip. This was taken during our 3 hour wait for the
ferry.

The next night we decided to have a family bonfire in my grandfather's
new fire pit he put together, Justin fell asleep cuddling the cat, but the
cat bailed on him so I couldn't help but snap a photo of how he was
laying before I woke him up for the fire.

My Papa's new fire pit. I taught him how to make S'mores that night!

Tinka has decided that she doesn't want to sleep on my side of the bed
anymore this is her new spot. 

She was curled up around justin's head like a wig :P 

I got a bad burn a couple of weeks ago gulls egging and I have a grand
march to walk in a couple weeks so I tried to get rid of my farmers tan
by purposely burning the rest of me, but I put too much sun screen and
now I have a white streak... 

Another thing that I have been up to is that I moved my bunny from Justin's house down here, I guess it's his bunny that I got him, but same thing :P, well we built him a make shift pen until we built him a nice big one. He's definitely loving being outside rather than being a house bunny. I was worried when a thunderstorm hit, but he's a tank of a bunny and it didn't bother him at all. I even went out in the storm to check on him and he wasn't phased at all!

I have a hair appointment tomorrow and I'm going to try something alittle drastic, might be a bad idea before going to prom, but I'm excited about it too! I have to house/dog sit this weekend and do like ten million other things. Hopefully I can have a couple blog posts up this weekend :) 

Stay Happy

New Goals

I am really trying to grow up and start getting my life on a routine. I always feel like my daily life is in chaos, not that anything exciting or chaotic happens, but that I really have no plan for the day and I just wing it as I go along. For people that know me, know that I am a planner. I am always planning my life out, from events to projects at home, and my dream life even has a "plan." I am always so excited to do all the planning and researching, but then when things don't work out according to how I have "planned" them it seems like my life is in turmoil, but I've been trying to break myself of that dramatic habit. I also tried to break myself of the planning, but it seemed nothing good came from that and caused more stress than anything, so it's just the dramatic part of continuing on when I hit a snag in a plan that needs work.

I am a very artistic person, which as the stereotype suggest that I am not the most organized type. This is mostly true, but it's not that I have a problem getting organized, it's staying organized. I have a high novelty seeking personality, so keeping my attention on something for longer than the excitement of starting the project lasts, is a chore. I have been working on this alot lately, I have been trying to make myself keep my room clean and make my bed every morning and keep things in an order and place, instead of having things strewn about and a mess everywhere.

I need do some printing to get myself organized like this

Getting my daily life organized. This is goal number one. I want to get myself into a routine, of getting up, working out, and going off to do the rest of my day. BUT I am not a morning person, I am a night hawk. My internal clock hates me, I am a chronic insomniac which is a nightly battle with me, but I have been doing quite well lately since I have been sharing my bed with my boyfriend. My insomnia is much worse when sleeping alone and it's a great comfort having another body in the bed.

Get a job, is task number two. I have never really worked in my life. I have had summer tourist jobs, but nothing that has ruled my life. So this is something that I am very nervous, but excited about. I have such a fear of failure that I need to fight that and just take a risk and jump into a job position. I have a couple things I am looking into and hopefully I come out alive. My excitement to learn new things is the biggest thing keeping me going on this one.

Lose more weight, I was doing so well a couple months ago and even though I haven't gained anything back, I'm also not making any progress. So I need to break out of this rut and do something different. I found myself a treadmill and hopefully I will be able to have it moved into the house next week. This also helps with my routine I want to get going by working out in the mornings.

this is about the same as what I would like to build

Finish clearing the space for garden and chicken coop, I have so many things that I want to get done outside, but it's been soooo shitty and wet out that I haven't been able to move forward with that either, but I really need to get the yard ready for the garden, chicken coop, bunny pen and compost pile.

Finish preparing for wedding number one, I'll be photographing a wedding in may and I am totally excited about it. I love shooting weddings. Some photographers hate doing wedding photos because it's so much pressure. And as much as I hate stress, I really work great when I know there's alot counting on it. I like the rush and pace of photographing a wedding. I also have a couple others that I will be photography this summer/fall, so I can't wait to get photos up on my blogs. The upcoming photo season has got me quite excited.

This is the dress that I am thinking of getting

Finish archiving, my macbook is in dire need of a good cleaning. So I have been setting up a digital archive of all the photos that I have taken in the past 2-3 years. Which is not a fast moving or exciting task. It's very monotonous and irritating job, but it needs to get done so there will be room for the photos to come. I also have to clean out my music library and other junk on my computer.

And lastly but not any bit least, buy a prom dress. I am going to be accompanying my cousin on the red carpet at grand march. He graduates this year and I couldn't be more proud of my bio-bro. I have no real brothers and sisters, but I am extremely close with my aunt and her boys. So I call them my biofam :) I am pretty excited to be walking the grand march again and it will definitely be interesting going with Jackson. We used to be sworn enemies, so when the family heard he choose me to walk with him it was a shock.