Put Alittle Elf On Your Face

My friend Bailey from BeingBaileyJ, showed me Eyes Lips Face and I was stunned by their prices. I have heard bad and good things about their products, but decided to place an order to make my own judgement. I was really in need of foundation, concealer and brushes, but because things are just so nicely priced I definitely went alittle over board with my order and tried a bunch of other products. My mother also got a few items as well. When our order arrived in the mail I was so stoked. Here was my order...

eye related 

brushes and zit zapping things, surprised that the zit zapper worked

foundation, concealers and other

lips and nails 

the entire order

I was stunned by how well I liked the foundation and how well it went on with the foundation brush...why have I been using my fingers all this time?! It goes on and covers much more evenly with the brush!

My favorite products I have used so far are...

1. The Eyebrow Kit - because if you have clear eye brows like me, you will love this! It's super easy and I haven't used too many other eye brow pencils and products, but it's better than the ones I did try. I barely put any on, but it's a dark enough color that is gives a slight hint of a dark eyebrow, and it matches my hair color, so I've been really excited about it.
2. The Foundation Brush - if you aren't that much into make or really haven't cared about it and just covered up the gross spots of your face and blended it enough to get through the day or if you just haven't looked up make up information and how to's and all that stuff and just go with it like me then you probably use your fingers to put your foundation on. I read something awhile ago that said you should use a foundation brush, it uses much less product and covers nicely and evenly. So I thought okay I'll try it, and they didn't lie to me! I've been pretty please with how my foundation looks using a foundation brush. 
3. Lip Stain - I don't usually do much to my lips, I have a good lip color and I've never liked lipstick, but I thought I should add something for my lips to my make up bag, just incase. So I picked the crimson crush color and I really like the stain better than lipstick. I don't use it all the time, but it brightens my look when I feel like I need alittle color in my life. 

The bad things I heard about their stuff were referring to their liquid blush/cream blush and other colored products like it, that it went on like paint. I personally didn't order those types of products, so I can't give a review or personal experience about them, but it could be that maybe you need a brush or their is a different technique to applying them or blending them that my source didn't know about. Oh, and I heard that their mascara isn't worth buying, but I am VERY picky about my mascara so when I find one or two that I like, it really takes a big risk or chance for me to change my purchase on mascara - like my eye brows I don't have many lashes so when I find a mascara that can make my lashes nice and long I don't stray from my brands there.

As far as I am concerned I haven't had a problem with their products and I REALLY like them for their low prices. They are definitely worth and order to try, you aren't going to put yourself in the hole by trying their products at such good prices. I spent like 45 dollars and look what I got, if I had bought make up at walmart like I usually do, I would have gotten two mascarra, some eye shaddow and a bottle of covergirl foundation for what I got from ELF. I will definitely be shopping at ELF more often. 

Stay Happy! 

When It Rains It Pours...And Then It Floods

As some of you may know I'm having some pretty shitty luck these days. No work, no money and things are piling up. How come when something awful happens, bad things just seem to keep happening for a weeks or months after it. I don't question the big Guy up there, but really aren't we taught not to kick someone when they're down. Come off it please! I know this is just a life lesson for me and it's supposed to make me stronger, but really enough is enough already. Atleast send me alittle love! I guess when it rains it pours, and then it floods and fills your life until you're drowning in a mess of life, barely keeping your head above the swell and just when you think it's done you in, you get pulled from the water. Well I'm at the point where I'm struggling to keep my head out of the murky depths and I'm losing faith that doggy paddling is going to keep me from sinking much longer.

 

The good part is I'm starting to find the humour in all this bad luck and troublesome situations I've been having. One thing that has really start to make my heart ache is not seeing my kidlets and babes. I did get a chance to see my girl a few days ago and when she lit up as I opened the car door I could have broke down in tears. I miss that little diva more than anyone will ever know. Kids have a way of grabbing ahold of your heart and not letting it go. But I was trying to talk about good things right? Anyway I've finally settled on a livingroom setup that I like and will probably keep for awhile. I don't know how many times I move my furniture around in a month. It's alittle chilly today but I did take 5 or 10 minutes to poke around the yard and ponder on what I'm going to do when it gets alittle warmer. I could have done more, but I didn't.

On the other hand I am volunteering at the school teaching photography for 40 minutes to grades 3-5. Just a little workshop thing they are starting, but it gives me a chance to see some of the afterschooler's from work. It's a bit of a kid fix. I'm really excited though because I'm finding my passion again and I took some photos with my newest lens. Trying to get better acquainted with it considering my multi-purpose lens is on the fritz and it's just another thing that I need to get repaired. My camera could use a good cleaning too, so I've got to look into that as well. Here are a couple (and I would have uploaded more, but this stupid pc and blogger aren't working together and it's only letting me make two photos big. But I'll throw in a small one to the right because I have some many cute photos that I want to show).

 

I'm not sure if anyone will know what I am talking about when I say this, but I really want to know how to take indie photos. It's really just a popular style these days. it's usually a low contrast with some sun flare, but I haven't mastered it yet. Sometimes it's a lot of photoshop, which I do know my way around, but I'm more of a lightroom kind of girl. Once I get my mac back, I'm going to try and sit down and figure out the photoshop way of doing "indie" photos. My friend, Cassidy is also wondering the same thing. A lot of really cute blogs have this kind of effect on their photos, and even in fashion it's popping up more and more. I don't mean to follow the trend, but I really do like the film-ish look that these photos have. It's really rustic and rich. I pretty much have a whole board on pinterest dedicated to this style of photo. These photos of my furbabes are my first attempt at sitting down with lightroom and trying to create the look. It's a good first try, but I'm not completely satisfied. Aren't they just adorable though?

 

 

 

 

 

I feel so disconntected from my world without my mac. I have barely been able to work on my photo life and I can barely put out a decent blog post. I really can't wait to make a post of all the lovely homeowning joys that I've had lately, but it probably won't be for awhile. I'll have to catch you all up. (all like 3 of you haha) Which also brings me to the fact that I want to try and start blogging better. I really don't know how to get followers or bring an audience to my blog. I really don't think there are many people out there that would want to follow along with me sometimes. I'm all over the place with my posts, I'm more of lifestyle blogger, then any other topic. Which makes me feel like no one wants to follow along with me. But maybe there are some people out there that will.

I hope everyone is keeping their chins up and smiles big!

Stay Happy!

The First of May!...oh wait it's only March

I know I am not the only one that feels like it should be spring already. I know that winter doesn't usually end for us until close to the end of March. Which is a whole month away from now. This is very depressing, but looking back at the past couple of months, they've gone by pretty fast. Which is also quite scary, because looking back at those months, I did nothing extraordinarily productive... my life has been somewhat put on hold.

I have got some good things going though. I invested in a can of paint to paint my what is a dining room but is going to be an office space until I build my studio. Which brings me to the work that I have been doing on my business, that's been pretty productive, BUT I also looked at it at another angle and realized that it's still going to be a good year or so before I can get enough money together to pitch my business and get a loan. So I'm still going to have to do it un-offcially for awhile. My mac is almost at it's 3 year mark and it's feeling it. Any that knows me, know that I am not a gentle person, I'm tough on shit and am always breaking things. I hate this about myself and I try to be more careful, but I'm always breaking something. People think it's because I'm careless, but really shit just kept happening, so I try to care LESS when it does so that I'm not crying all the time about the shit that I break lol Anyway, I was also examining my main lens which is almost four years old, and it too is having some issues, might be an easy fix, it just doesn't seem to be attaching to my camera body correctly.
Back to good things. I hosted an epicure party last night, because I love their products! I like that it's somewhat healthy dip, by that I mean that it's better for you than stuff you by at the store, and really tasty! I'm doing quite good in sales and hopefully will get just a little bit more so I can get some more free stuff! My next thing isn't productive, but it did make my happy, I'm all caught up on New Girl, I am a little bit in love with Zoey Deschanel, or maybe alot and I think she's just perfection. The show always makes me good about life, so I've just been watching that the past two days. Oh and I'm sleeping alot, but I like sleep so that doesn't bother me, I'm really just mixed up, I sleep most of the day and stay up all night. I'm backwards, that's what happens when I have nothing to do. I prefer being awake at night.

My biggest and final awesome thing is that I am down to 222.5 which I am excited about.

Stay Happy!

What A Mess

Hold on people, this is going to be a long, messy post.

My life has been a mess for a couple months now. I feel like everything is basically crumbling down around my feet. I'm pretty good at acting like everything's okay, or maybe I'm just really good at convincing myself that everything is or will be okay. Truth is, I've actually felt okay lately, probably because I've been ignoring everything around me and choose to pretend that life is good, but I haven't felt depressed and if ignoring life is keeping me from not caring about life, then I'll take it.

I really want to make clear that this post isn't me complaining or whining. I have a big insecurity that people are always getting annoyed by me or think that I am complaining or feeling bad for myself. I'm not, in fact I'm quite proud of myself for keeping what I have left, together. I haven't been feeling all that way physically and I've been sleeping alot during the day anyway, my insomnia has been acting up at night and I've just been catching naps when I get actually dose off. But lately I've wanted to sleep, my dreams have been vivid and seem a whole lot better than life right now. That's no way to live, so I'm awake and trying to get my shit together. I've got so much stuff I should be doing but have no motivation, but I'm not a big fan of giving up, I'm just a good procrastinator so I put trying off sometimes.

Another really awful thing that's been bothering me lately is my breakup. It's been what almost two months now. Something that people should know about me is that I grieve and deal with things differently or I guess the best way to describe it is in this photo. Only I don't deal like the girl does, I'm alot like the guy side. Maybe it's because my father had a big influence on me and trying not to show weakness plays a big part. The thing about how my relationship ended has alot to do with it too. He didn't leave me, I left him because he hurt me and let me down big time. I know that I don't deserve that at all, but I have this thing where I continuously blame myself for everything or that I feel I'm responsible for a good chunk of shit that happens. I don't think that's a bad thing about me, I'm glad that I can take responsibility for my actions, but part of me knows I did everything I could to make our relationship work and another part of me still feels like I could have done more, tried harder or been better. I am not a saint, I wasn't the perfect girlfriend, I have many of my own issues, but point was I tried, I put in the effort to be better and felt like he wasn't doing any of that. I loved him, still do or I guess I loved who he was at the beginning of our second time around. I definitely miss that guy, not the drunk, but who he really is. Truth is I was embarrassed by alot of things that he did and still am, but I've realized that I made him feel that way with some of my bad decisions. I'm not perfect, far from it actually. Point is even though I think he's an ass/douche/idiot/insert any rude name here, I've really been missing him. I've really been feeling cheated out of everything I or "we" had planned for in 2013. I feel like I should have been more important than alcohol, I understand addictions but they don't get better on their own and the only person that can change it is the addict. It's all up to them, so it's still a slap in the face, when he said "I have a problem, I doesn't just go away" you're right it doesn't but you're the only one that has the power to change it and I know he could have. I was selfish once and left him for what I wanted, so like I said I'm not perfect. I believe life is about balance, so maybe our second run was for me to learn so of the feelings I made him feel, learn from my own mistakes by having them thrown back at me. I just miss him and our plans and the little things and having someone always there. I know I'm better off and I will not run back to him ever again, this is all just a test to build up strength to stay away.

I do not want a relationship again for awhile. I'm not ready for that at all. Which brings me to my next problem. Being single and out of work, makes for too much time on my hands. I've been going out too much and need to tone it back a bit. A couple of years ago I allowed myself a year to party, to get it out of my system so I could just get serious about things. Well it worked while I was in a relationship, but now that I'm back to being alone, going out has been fun. Truth is though that I'm not as big of a fan of it as I used to be. The next day I feel stupid and don't care half as much for the "good stories" anymore. So I'm going to stop before I really make some bad choices and get myself into a big mess. I like being sober and I like the life I was living, being single and out of work just got me down and partying seemed to make light of the situation. Another way to ignore life, but really it just cause more problems in the end. I'm not myself, because I make another personna in order to deal with life.

Which brings me to my last issue, which really ties in to the past paragraph. I constantly feel a war with myself. I feel like I have two totally different sides of myself that are always arguing about what I should do, how I should feel, how I should fix things and so much more. I mentioned before that I believe life is all about balance, this is just another thing that makes me believe. Whether it's religion or whatever else you believe in there is always a balance. You can't have good without bad, light without dark, positive without negative. I see my "two halves" as balance. Kinda like a good angel me on one should and a devil me on the other. Some people could find this really funny when I describe them as "robin" and "bluejay" not that many people read this, but for those who don't know me I was given the nickname bluejay (for the obvious, my name is robyn, which is a bird, so my nickname was just another bird) But I consider Robin my sensible, realistic, tame, good side and Bluejay as my wild, stupid, bad half. Not just because I acquired the name while I was partying a couple year ago, but because it's really become alot more than that for me. I always feel like a nut-job talking about it, but it's balance, some people choose to hide the bad things that they do, but everyone does wrong. I just choose to separate myself as a balancing act of two common birds. I can be two totally different people when I want to be, one does alot more good than the other, while the other one has alot more fun and doesn't mean to do so much harm. I had the two birds tattooed on me, most people thought it was funny because it's just my name and a nickname, but to me it's more than that. It's me as a whole. My good and the bad and I can't live as just one of them. Crazy or not I'm me and I understand myself most of the time even if i'm arguing with myself. I've been fighting with myself about what to do with my life, work, social, private. I'm just lost and trying to get by, hoping that things will eventually get put back together. It'll just take time I guess, everything takes time.




I let so much get to me, you might not see it from the outside, but inside I'm a complete and utter mess of emotions and thoughts. I stress over so much stuff and over think everything. I've always just wanted to be someone that just cared less about problems, but I suck as caring less. I care about everything, which means I stress about everything.



On a high note! I've been pinning so much because really that's all I do when I have time. Other than be really really super productive... Check out these screen captions taken only a couple days from each other. All my pinning my paying off in followers haha

And only a week or so before this photo I was pumped for 500!

I also find this sad that this is one of my greater accomplishments of the past week... Thanks for following though :)

Stay Happy!!

Storm Stayed & Cabin Fever

If anyone reads this blog that doesn't live in my area, we are in for a real doozy of a storm, yes I just said doozy because I am too tired to think of another describing word. I thought about sitting out the storm at my own house, but I'm too much of a baby if the power went out, who wants to be alone with no power? I would also be really bored all alone with no power. Instead, I came down to my mothers and hopefully won't be stuck here forever.
10:00pm-ish The storm has started and although I don't know how much snowing it's doing, it's blowing quite "fierce" out there. I put fierce in quotations because my first snow storm activity, which with the amount of cackling some could say that cabin fever has already set in...was looking up the hilarious photos of Beyonce during her super bowl performance. I mean we all love Beyonce, but I think I love her just alittle bit more after seeing these photos. She brightened my snowy night.

Here are some of my favorites and then the link where you can see more!

This by far is my favorite and I literally can't look at it without laughing, I'm not sure if its the
flared nostrils or the fact she's looking a bit granny-ish, but the hair tops it all off and I just
can't hold back the laughter.

This just looks like a really bad facebook profile pic. 

Raising the roof...and some suspicions of a bad smell.  

She can still smell it...

Something was alittle painful...maybe the smell came with some burning? 

This just scared me at first and I almost thought it was fake, until I found all the other
photos and figured it's just another great capture. My favorite thing about this picture,
beside the fact that her tiny train in the back resembles cobwebs between her legs, is that
my mother tried to re-create this moment. I'm not sure who looked funnier or worse,
Momma Lenny or Beyonce. Mom said "Beyonce wins, even though I have the moves
down I just can't make the face." That's not a bad thing mom, because if you could
and woke me up in the night making that face, I may run away forever.

MORE HERE

During my time stuck inside at this time of day, being 2:11am (cause if there wasn't a storm I would obviously be out and about...) but still this is a storm stayed activity of catching up on tv shows that I used to watch and currently keep up with. I'm almost caught up with 90210, I watched this weeks Grey's and I started to catch up on New Girl, but I'm still at the end of season one, so I have quite a bit to catch up on there, but they are only 20 mins, so I may accomplish all of that tomorrow during the storm.

I did a smidgin of organizing in my itunes library and downloaded the rest of Ben Howard that I was missing. I think I will work on a couple more blog posts tomorrow and do some actual productive stuff, like organize my life again and maybe do up a resume, because being laid-off really scares the crap out of me, especially after I just bought a freaking house...oh life, why must you torture me? I also need to get my ass in gear and work on some photo shit, when I'm depressed I lose all inspiration for photography and lately I've been in the hole a bit inside myself, so time to climb out of it and dust myself off.

Night, will continue this post tomorrow!

It's almost 5pm and we've just had some steady power for the first time today. Basically all I have done today is hide in bed, the only warm place since we have electric heat and no power, and read. The cold has made me so sleepy, but I am finally sitting up in the livingroom with some internet and warmth.

I planned to have all these really fun things that I did durning the storm, but really I didn't do anything my shiver and hope for some warmth. I really did enjoy getting through some chapters in my book that I NEED to finish. Since I haven't been in the nursery I haven't had much reason to read, I've been doing other things, but I had nothing to do but sleep or read today. I'm almost finished it and might just read for kicks and giggles tonight before going to sleep.

The book I am currently reading is "Beautiful Days" a Bright Young Things Novel by Anna Godbersen. She is one of my favorite authors, maybe my actually favorite. I love all her books. I get hooked on them, The first series I read is the second photo. I highly recommend them. They are about New York in the early 1900's and I wish I had been alive durning that generation, and rich of course.

The photos are in order that the books go and after looking at the covers of "The Luxe" series it makes me want to go back and re-read them. Maybe when I get a couple of my new books read I will go back to that series. I have to be honest and say that I was much more involved with The Luxe series than the Bright Young Things. I love both series, but I fell in love with The Luxe books and there seemed to be so much scandal in the that series.

Probably my favorite series I've read

This is Anna, she looks so young and she's
full of talent! 

Since the power has been on, I've been watching the Ghost Adventures marathon. My ex got me into the show and at first I thought it was really stupid. I mean I really love ghost shows, whether they are real or faked, but at first I thought that Zak was alittle over dramatic and it made things seemed really stressed and faked. But I have warmed up to him and I have seen almost every episode and really enjoy the show. There are a handful of episodes that creep me out, but there a couple of handfuls that I find really interesting, the technology that they use and experiments. I'm very open to the thought of the "paranormal" I guess you could call me a believer. But I believe in alot of things and maybe all the theories are connected. If you like the ghost shows/movies and haven't ever watch ghost adventures, I recommend it. I'm not saying you'll like it and there are some episodes that are flops in my opinion, but there are some really good ones too.

My absolute favorite paranormal show is Destination Truth, its been a really long time since there were new episodes and I think it cost a lot to keep the show going because it's a world wide investigation team and they traveled everywhere. But all of there past seasons and shows are awesome. Not all, but it's by far the my top rated ghost show, they don't just do ghosts either, they investigate all sorts of legends and myths, searching for the truth. And the host, Josh Gates is hilarious and I obviously fell in love with him. I don't know what I like more about the show, him making fun of his crew and the locals for all the places they visit, or all the cool adventures that they go on to find stuff. I really miss this show! It actually makes me sad, I may watch them all again. (I say I've going to read these books again and watch these shows over, but really I don't have time to continue with current stuff, let alone to RE-do stuff)

The storm is dying down and the house doesn't sound so much like it's going to take off. For awhile I actually thought that the front room, may come detached from the original house.

Another thing that I did today once I got internet was update my photo blog, do to the fact that I am broke and laid off I have no money to continue my .ca site so I will be working straight from my blog and facebook page. I've really neglected my photography for multiple reasons, but I'm going to try to re-creat myself and move on from the past. For more information see my photo blog.

6:45, not sure how I'm feeling about my most recent storm activity. I really must have cabin fever to have done this. During the fall I had decided that I was going to try Twitter. I went on it for a day and never went back. Today I went back and followed some people and I'm going to try to commit to going on it here and there. I'm not a big fan of it for some reason, maybe it's because I'm nosey and don't find it as interesting as facebook hahaha, even though most of the time I'm yelling at facebook because it's boring. The only reason that I like twitter is because I think it's cool to follow celebrities and pretend that I'm like a long lost friend of theirs. I actually just followed a bunch of people from the tv shows I was just talking about. I'm not sure if it makes me feel cool or creepy.

9:12  Of course I have been pinning for a couple of hours. How better do you pass the time and lose track of all reality than to pin? It's probably my favorite thing to do. Which might be alittle sad, but I LOVE how many awesome ideas I get from there, it's actually putting those awesome ideas to use that is the tricky part. With no money it can get alittle difficult. I'm pinning all these home decor photos and have no money to re-do my house. I'm going to slowly pick at it though. I'm going to clean out my basement tomorrow and I'm going to start trying to get rid of some stuff on buy-n-sell.

It's safe to say that the only thing I will be doing for the rest of the night is pinning and possibly reading, before bed. Both of which I have talked about so I think I'm going to post this almost 24hr long blog entry now. I hope that everyone in my area has survived the storm and somehow stayed warm through the power outages! I know that most of my early day was spent in bed in the flannel sheets with layers of clothes on. Poor little Miles (my special needs kitten) would cry when he got cold and I'd pick him up and he's curl under the blankies with me, tinka and mom. We all stayed in one bed to keep warm. Made me feel like a kid again!

T-Bear curled up infront of the heater after the power came back on.

Miles curled in the pillows keeping warm when the power went out.

Stay warm through the rest of the storm!
 & Stay happy!!

Am I The Only One?

I'm been thinking about some "Am I The Only One?" things lately and thought I would make a post about it. It may take a couple days to think of them all again, but here's to working on it! I've been really bored lately from being out of work, so I am trying to keep myself busy. Due to depression I haven't wanted to do anything at all, but my normal mind keeps telling myself that I HAVE to get up and do stuff or I will be right back where I was last winter. And we all know where that went for me...running back to the ex thinking that was a good idea and gaining all the weight I had lost, back. So this time I am working to get all the weight off and to keep as far away from my ex.

Am I The Only One that.... 

1. ...lies in bed planning out every possible conversation with any possible person? And that trip to the grocery store that I have to make the next day. I swear I could create a whole life in my head before I fall asleep.

2. ...dreams the most insane shit at night? I know that some people say that when they eat certain foods before bed they will dream really strange stuff. I also take a medication that has a side effect of crazy dreams...yes apparently thats a real side effect. It does make life entertaining, but sometimes I dream so vivid and crazy that sometimes I really have to think if I did it in real life or a dream. Like last night I was dreaming that I pinned something and when I went back to my boards this morning, there was no such pin. But I have dreamt anything from living in a volcano, my neighbors bought a tiger this winter and he wore a knitted sweater to keep him warm when he wandered the village, that I was in a war zone and being held hostage in a community in the woods of germany... it had a really nice bathtub though, so that was good. And the other night I woke up laughing because I had dreamt that I was at my mothers and she was in the bathroom, but I needed in there immediately! But she wouldn't let me in, so I went to the kitchen, called into the back of the cupboard and did number 2 in a bowl. Hey, when you gotta go, you gotta go. Let's just say I was glad it wasn't one of those dreams that when you go to the bathroom in your sleep you do it in your bed too.

3. ...mixes up their "r" and "l"? I mean like I used to mess up my b and d when I was little and I still do it some now. But when I say "religion" it's VERY hard for me to get it right, most of the time I say "lerigion" and people have a question mark come over their face. I know there is another word that I do it with too, but I can't think of it at the moment.

4. ...loves cucumber and vinegar?

5. ...is most productive at 1am? seriously, I could tackle the world after midnight! If aliens ever invade our little island and think they can kill us all while we are sleeping, no worries I've got it covered cause with the amount of energy I have this time of night I could take down a whole planet.

6. ...used to think one thing a few years ago and has now changed so much that she thinks the complete opposite? I used to believe that people didn't change, but now I think that that is the most depressing statement to believe. I believe people change, I know I sure as hell have. I mean, there are parts of us that might make it through life remaining the same, but through life we grow, we learn, parts of us die and new parts are created. I know that people are capable of changing for both the good and the bad, but there are always both components inside of us. It's choosing which side of us gets to live, the good or the bad.

7. ...loves bruises? This may be a totally messed up thing to like, but some people like scars, well I find bruises interesting. Not only because most of my bruises come with funny stories, but because in a way I find them kind of pretty in an ugly way. The way they change color, they usually start out a blackish purple and then start changing to a green with maybe some red in it, then it gets really ugly when it all starts trying to look like flesh again with some browns and dull reds.

8. ...never seems to have smooth, clear skin? I don't mean on my face, actually right now my face is probably the best looking part of me, which is something to say right there. But I am COVERED in scrapes and scratches all the time. Right now, it's basically because my special needs kitten has the worst balance in the world so his instinct is to latch on for dear live to anything he can sink his razor sharp claws into. Even before him I always had at least two scratches on me. My legs are a total mess. My skin is fair and any blemish leaves a mark and is visible for years. There isn't enough BioOil in the world to fade that shit.

9. ...wants to write a book? I always loved writing in high school and in my head I always told myself that one day I would write a book. I'm laid off at the moment, maybe this is the time to start? I definitely want to re-write my children's books that I wrote in high school and get a friend to illustrate them, maybe even write a couple new ones. Working with kids really inspires me to create stories for them.

10. ...hates the fact that she hates winter? I used to LOVE winter, it was my favorite season, but the past winters I spent in the city, I hated winter. I told myself it was because winter was so gross and messy in the city and that spending winter on the island was so much more beautiful and clean. So right now I have a beautiful yard filled with white, clean snow and I just want it all to go away so spring could be here. I don't want to hate winter, because it's such a beautiful season, but you can't get ANYTHING productive done. I want to garden and feel the warmth. Ain't nobody got time to shovel snow and beat on the frozen garage door until it opens and ain't nobody got the monies to pay for heat! I know I don't! So Mr.Winter, please let this weekend be your last snow storm, I hear it's going to be a big one. Sounds like a good finale to me? I hear Mrs.Spring is really missing the island right now, so be a gentleman and get the fuck out!

Hope that everyone is staying warm! and if you live somewhere that it is warm...feel free to buy me a plane ticket to your residence until things warm up around here or ... get the fuck out :)

Stay Happy!!

How I Miss The Warmth

It was plus seven outside today which felt pretty nice, but made me miss summer. 

Am I The Only One?

I just read Bailey J's "Am I The Only One" post and decided to make my own. I don't think I would have ever come up with the idea to do a post like this on my own, yet when I'm away from my computer I always think of strange things and wonder, does anyone else do this? I should blog about it later, and never get to it. So here it is :

Am I the Only One?

that lives scenarios in their head? It doesn't matter if I'm at the mirror, in the shower, on the toilet, laying in bed, or putting on my makeup, if something is bothering me I relive what would happen if I got to confront them, sometimes I even catch myself mouthing the words or actually saying them haha

that rapes their boxed store bought pizza? When I am at home and about to chow down on a piece of delissio I first strip it of it's toppings cause thats the best part so I eat it last. I'm left with a saucy piece of bread to start with, I tear little piece of it and eat it little by little until it's gone then I eat all the juicy toppings, but I leave the bottom - the crunchy part of the crust that touches the pan, cause i don't like that shit. 

that loves starting a tv show when there are 4 or more seasons that I can watch all in a row? I love most tv shows, but I think that even if I didn't like the show if I was able to watch it start to finish chances are I would like it.

that has a huge dream that will take so much money to accomplish, but it determined to make it happen?

that sometimes thinks she has a second personality, like another version of myself?

that LOVES SaveEasy frosting, literally could eat a cake that was just made of that frosting?

that wishes she was born in the 20's or 30's? Or atleast wishes the world was a combination of how people used to live in the past with the technology of today.

that really wants a farm?

that really wishes that people did more stuff for themselves. I wish cars were built so you could fix them yourself with a pair of pantyhose instead of having to take them to a specialist that will charge you big bucks to get it fixed. Or that you could do your own plumbing like fixing your sink without getting a 5000.00 fine because a licensed plumber didn't do it. If you want to do it yourself and know how, I think you should be able to without being fined because a specialist didn't do it. I don't get upset when people take photos of people and they didn't go to school for it. Grow up people. 

that wants to live off the grid? 

There are SO many more that I could come up with but I'll save it for another day. Let me know if i'm not the only one!

Stay Happy! 

My Favorite Artists

I've been doing alot of cleaning out of a pins and I got to my art board and decided that I would make a little post about my favorite artists. Some new, some old, but the fact is I love them all. I wish I was a quarter of as talented with a brush or pencil as some of these people are. I've just never been able to see something in my head and put it to paper.

Number One

Draw Gabby Draw - I'm not quite sure what her last name is but click on the name to see her tumblr. I've been watching her blog for years now, ever since I laid eyes on her work I was in love. Someday I will purchase one of art pieces to hang on my wall :) It's actually going on my summer to do list! 

This was the piece I originally fell for

My favorite watercolor of hers :) 

I love her strange and creative creatures!

Number Two

Duane Bryers - I recently discover these works on a blog that I follow. I was overly excited because I LOVE vintage, if I could choose the day and age to live in I would go back and live through the 20's 30's 40's 50's and 60's. I wish I could have seen the world the way my grandparents and great grandparents seen it. I love pin ups and I love when plus size women are recognized as beautiful!! Being a plus size girl most of my life I struggled with self esteem issues, but recently I have seen the world with a new light. I've decided to love myself. So Duane's "Hilda" series really made me happy. 

I love how he uses expression

Number Three

Brett Superstar - I pinned one of his photos awhile back and today I looked through his art and loved his comedic and cartoon-like artwork. I absolutely love his animals, mostly his birds! 

I think this pretty lady deserves her own movie! I love her! 

I love that he uses materials like old wood! 

I adore the bottom left! 

Number Four

Jaw Cooper - I just discovered this artist as well, on DrawGabbyDraw. The reason why I love this specific piece is the detail and the hair. I love art nouveau and the movement of her hair immediately reminded me of the dramatic swirls that art nouveau has.

 

Number Five

Brittany Burton - I haven't looked at alot of her stuff, but I really enjoy her floral pieces. Love the colors!

These are all modern artists, I'm not quite sure who I would choose as far as historical artists go. I took alot of art history while in school, but I would have to brush up on it before finding out who my favorites were, the only ones I can really remember were the ones that I hated. I think that the internet has been a huge breakthrough for artists, just having your stuff out there surfing around for anyone to see. Some people may think of it as a bad thing, but if you create art on the mean reason that someone else see it and enjoy it, just dreaming about who could have seen it and liked it is nice to think about!

Stay Happy and Try creating something beautiful sometime :)